O4/O2/O8 - lemonCHA skinned itself of the old layout. Let me explain the significance of this new one. I have decided to go from a little change of cuteness to something with a better representative of my current life, and this is what my creative mind {not} came up with. Basically, it's just one picture from each season, that represents the cycle of life. Hah I think i'm bad at explaining this. But I didn't have alot of good ideas for vectors {That and i've been procrastinating too much} so no 1OO% original layout this time. You know, keepin` life simple once in awhile! :D
`__ Bored. ` posted May 12th, 2008
You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
Not as easy as you might think…
1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Home
3. Your hair?: Down
4. Your mother? Overseas
5. Your father?: Room
6. Your favorite item?: Sushi
7. Your dream last night?: Blank
9. Your dream car?: BMW
10. The room you are in?: Bedroom
11. Myspace?: Shit
12. Your fear?: Isolation
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Loved
14. Who did you hang out with last night?: Myself
15. What you’re not?: Sleepy
16. Muffins?: Maybe
17. One of your wish list items? Laptop
18: Time? Midnight
19. The last thing you did?: Eat
20. What are you wearing?: Clothes
22. Your favorite book?: Thick
23. The last thing you ate?: Toast
24. Your life?: :Lame
25. Your mood?: Alright
26. Your friends: Gay
27. What are you thinking about right now?: Sleep
28. Your car? Shiny
29. What are you doing at the moment? This
30. Your summer?: Dunno
31. Your relationship status? Dunno
32. What is on your tv? Off
33. When is the last time you laughed? Today
34. Did you cry last night?: Yes
35. Why?: Nothing
36. School?: Lame
`__ Jordyn Taylor - Strong ` posted May 5th, 2008
1st period
1. What class is this?: History
2. Is your best friend in this class?: Dont have one.
3. Does your teacher dress slutty?: Yeah no.
4. Have you ever stuck gum under a desk in this class?: No.
5. Do you do a lot of group work in this class?: No.
6. Is this class boring?: 100%
7. Name something unique about this class: Nothing.
8. Do you have an ex in this class?: No
2nd period
1. What class is this?: Spare
2. Can you listen to iPods in this class?: Yes
3. Do you have a passing grade in this class?: Sure I can pass my spare.
4. What time is this period over?: Whenever the bell rings.
5. Name something you hate about this class: I dont hate ut,
6. Do you want to shoot someone in this class?: Yes because it’s a spare.
8. Are you taking this class for fun, or do you have to have it to graduate?: Yes spares are needed for me to graduate.
3rd/4th period
1. What class is this?: Math 2OP.
2. Do you talk very much in this class?: Too much.
3. What’s the weirdest thing you have ever done in this class?: Fixing me lead pencil with Megan and Steph.
4. Do you secretly enjoy this class?: Sure.
5. Have you ever skipped this class?: Only once.
6. Do you have people of other grades in this class with you?: I think so.
7. Who sits in front of you in this class?: A guy who never changes shirts/pants
8. Does your teacher ever give pop quizzes?: No.
5th/6th period
1. What class is this?: Physics
2. Name something that you use in this class besides paper and pencil: Brain.
3. What time does this period start?: Either before or after lunch all week.
4. What’s the greatest thing that has ever happened in this class?: The student teacher.
5. Are you allowed to eat in this class?: Yep.
6. Do you dread this class?: Sometimes.
7. Who is the smartest person in this class?: Who knows.
8. Who sits to your right in this class?: Some chick.
Lunch
1. How much is lunch at your school?: Expensive.
2. Do you have more than one cafeteria?: No.
3. Do you have to stand in line very long?: Yep.
4. Can you go off campus to eat?: Ya.
5. What’s the best thing served?: Slush
6. What’s the worst thing served?: Fries. So sick of it.
7. Where do you sit during lunch?: Lockers.
7th period
1. What class is this?: Japanese
2. Do you have an enemy in this class?: No.
3. Do you have a textbook for this class?: Yes
4. Is there anyone attractive in this class?: Nope. Not one in the school either.
5. Do you think you will ever be failing this class?: I dont think so.
6. Does this class go by fast?: Most of the time yes.
7. Do you have tests often in this class?: Not really.
8. Is this a full year class?: Yes
8th period
1. What class is this?: English
2. Is your teacher a female?: Yes
3. Do you get a lot of homework in this class?: No
4. Is this class more tolerable than your other classes?: I’d say the worst.
5. Could you picture this teacher making out with anyone?: Uhm no…
6. What do you think your teacher was like when she was younger?: Who knows.
7. Do you think this class has any meaning to it?: Not really.
8. Have you ever made a 100% on a test in this class?: Never had a test
Other
1. How do you get home?: Fly
2. Does your school allow you to drive your own car?: Yep
3. Does your school produce a cool yearbook?: Its aight.
4. Do you like your school?: Not really.
5. How is your school’s sports teams?: Dont care.
6. Do you like your principal?: Uhm. Sure why not.
7. Do you have to make up snow days?: Like we have any.
8. What’s your favorite thing about your school?: Nothing.
`__ Linkin park - Session ` posted May 3rd, 2008
1O whats
1. what was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?: Why am I still depressed.
2. what did you do last night? Slept alot. Tried to forget.
3. what is the most important thing to do in your life right now? Nothing matters.
4. what would you rather be doing right now? Dying.
5. what did you last cry over? Someone I really like.
6. what always makes you feel better when you’re upset? A good phone conversation or a hug
7. what are your plans tomorrow? Daydream the day away.
8. what are you worried about? My life.
9. what did you do all day? Be emo.
10. what are you looking forward to most in this week? Nothing.
9have-you-evers
1. have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend? Nope.
2. have you ever had your heart broken? Yep.
3. have you ever played a sport on a team? No.
4. have you ever been out of the country? Yep.
5. have you ever thrown up on someone? This question’s gay.
6. have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? Yep.
7. have you ever had the cops called on you? Nope.
8. have you ever dated someone younger then you? No.
9. have you ever read an entire book in one day? Yes.
8whos:
1. who was the last person you saw? Edmon
2. who was the last person you hugged? Hao
3. who was the last person you called? Someone who didn’t pick up.
4. who was the last person to call you? Some person.
5. who was your first crush? B.L.
6. who was the last person to message you? Edmon
7. who is the last person you texted? Ducky
8. who did you last yell at? No one.
7whens:
1. when was your last shower? Last night.
2. when did you last see your mom? Last year.
3. when was your last hug? Yesterday
4. when did you last dress up? Long time ago.
5. when was the last time you cried? Today.
6. when did you last go to the movie theatre? 9 months ago.
7. when were you born? Oct 14th
6wheres:
1. where do your best friend(s) live? Don’t have one.
2. where did you last go? School
3. where did you last hang out? City Center.
4. where do you go to school? Ainlay
5. where is your favorite place to be? Anywhere where the sunset is nice.
6. where did you sleep last night? Desk.
5do/does:
1. do you like someone right now? Yes.
2. do they like you too? Obviously not.
3. do you ever wish you were someone else? Yes.
4. do you know the muffin man? He’s a murderer.
5. does the future scare you? Can’t even keep up with the present.
4whys:
1. why are you best friends with your best friend? Don’t have one.
2. why did you get a Facebook? Too many invites.
3. why did your parents give you the name you have? They’re retrded.
4. why are you doing this survey? To be occupied.
3ifs:
1. if you could have one superpower, what would it be? Read minds.
2. if you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? Dying after I was born.
3. if you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing, what would it be? A person.
2would-you-evers:
1. would you ever be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would be because they were mean to you? Depends.
2. would you ever shave your head, to save the person you love? Yes.
1last question:
are you happy with your life right now? Don’t think I ever will be.
Make-Up
1. Do you use make-up?: Sometmes.
2. What color eyeliner is your favorite?:Black
3. What brand of mascara do you use?:Who cares.
4. Do you use cover-up, bronzer, or blush ? Nope.
5. Is glitter tacky looking?: What am I 5?
6. Do you often use eyeshadow?: No.
7. What’s your favorite color eyeshadow?: Whatever.
8. Lip gloss or Chapstick? Who knows.
9. Are fake eyelashes gross?: Is anything fake ever good?
10. What make-up did you wear today?: Didn’t go out today.
Body
1. Are you comfortable with your body?: Just a little short.
2. Does it annoy you when girls say “I’m fat, I need to diet”?: Like i really care
3. Do you workout?: No
4. Do you eat healthy?: No
7. Do you have poor vision?: Glasses.
8. Is there ever a specific spot on your body that always hurts?: Kidney? I don’t know. Side pains.
9. Do you drink milk to build strong bones?: Never really found out if it helps.
Boys Boys Boys
1. to start this off, do you even like boys?: Some.
2. Do you have a ‘type’?: Nope.
3. Have you ever cheated on a guy?: No.
4. Are you a heartbreaker?: No. But i’m heartbroken.
5. Do you blush around the boy you like?: No. I just get nervous.
6. What color eyes do you prefer for a boy?: Asian.
7. What’s the number one thing you look for in a boyfriend?: Don’t know.
8. How long was your last relationship?: 2 yrs
9. Do you act ditzy around boys?: No.
10. Do you like it when a boy is totally cute, but he acts like he doesn’t know it?: No.
Hair
1. What color is your hair?: Blck
2. Does it get lighter in the summer?: Sure.
3. What products do you use in your hair?: Shampoo + conditioner
4. Naturally, your hair is: Straight, Curly, or Wavy?: Straight.
5. Have you ever gotten high/low lights?: Yes
6. Would you ever dye your hair any un natural color?: I just dyed it brown? Unless it’s shit like pink, then no.
7. How is your hair style right now?: Gay.
8. How do you wear your hair to school?: Down.
9. Does it annoy you when your hair sticks to your lip gloss/chapstick? Too lazy to put on so no.
10. Do you like your hair?: Not really.
Tell the honest truth
1. Are you self conscious?: Not too often.
2. Do you think you’re too fat/skinny?: I’m skinny. That’s a given.
3. Would you ever self harm?: No.
4. Are you happy with yourself?: Sure.
5. Do you sometimes feel your never good enough? No.
6. Do you stereotype people?: No.
7. Would you change yourself for the person you love?: Depends what needs to be changed.
8. If it wasn’t expensive, would you consider plastic surgery? So I look like a monkey?
9. Did you answer honestly to these questions?: Duh.
`__ Claude Kelly - Alone ` posted April 27th, 2008
Sometimes it feels that I don’t love him anymore. It feels like I am so sick of dealing with everything I have no time. I have too many distractions and I can’t stop BEING distracted. I think I need help but where do I go? I just want us to be friends. But something like that can’t really leave my mouth after almost two years.
At least I got a few exams out of the way. Now I have to worry about two history projects and I really do hope I can keep the promise to myself of going to the library every day after school so I can do work and research. SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY, I don’t know what I want. But life’s great when there’s confusion. Mine just lasts a life time.
Oh by the way, is it just me or do people really like ignoring others now a days? That or i’m just being annoying…yeah i’m being annoying. What do I have to do to get him to chase after me instead? What do I have to do to make him feel comfortable with me like i’m a friend to him. Now I jst feels like garbage because…well…what AM i to him?
Anyways though, back to work {Puhaha what work?}. Summer summer, where art thou?
{{ O MiLK`D }}`__ I was born, to tell you i love you. ` posted April 22nd, 2008
Every passing week, day, hour, has been nothing but hectic. Every inch closer to grade 12 is hitting me pretty hard. Happy thing? There’s none. There’s just nothing but bad news. Concerning credits, courses and what not. But once again, it’s only myself to blame. The workaholic me just doesn’t want to come out. Now look. The result is a whole bunch of regrets and no accomplishments really. There’s been alot on my mind, projects to be done, History research to be done. Life would be easier living on knowing that this exam and that exam will not scare me as much as it does. When I think i’m standing on concrete, it turns out i’m sinking in quick sand. Again, my life makes a turn towards the chaotic side of things. Although I can probably say it never calmed down. A storm is a storm and the sun now seems far away.
But yet….there are always these people..no matter how busy I am, will remain in my mind. Sometimes I just wish I can stop putting others in front of myself. The kind and caring nature of me only gives people impression that i’m someone to use. Have I no friendship value? Just gimme a shout when you need me you know….i don;t ask for anything in return…and I have a “take advantage of me sign” written all over me is that it? Ah well. No worries.
Recently might I add, I dug in abit deeper into someone’s life and not forcefully either. And i’m happy he shared. Whether this was my goal from beginning or not. But time does do wonders. Not that I feel exceptionally close, just slowly getting there. Ah, someone who understands my situation is someone’s friendship worth treasuring.
There are people i’m glad I met, and people I wish I never met. But none the same, everyone I know breathing on this planet, deserves my ounce of thought. Just letting my invisible lemon-cha readers know. Or…my curious friends who just happens to stumble upon it.
Although…if I can tell you how many important people I have in my life…i’ll have to say there’s probably only 5.
EL.LK.KL.WT.TC.
You know who you are. I love you all whether you like it or not.
I’m out.
{{ 1 MiLK`D }}`__ Mudfish. ` posted April 7th, 2008
Gah it’s lunch right now and the school blocks EVERY single website. So i’m going to blog because there’s about 10 minutes left till I have another class of physics & my english teacher jst walked by so I guess I can’t skip.
Today is a stupid and boring day. History was confusing as usual, fell asleep when we had time to work in Math, and physics was really dead because we have a student teacher {haha he’s chinese too and he’s a friend’s brother} and he stutters when he talks and it’s so funny because i think he’s nervous about teaching. Ah well. I sat in class writing a letter to Edmon mudfish when I was suppose to work on worksheet.
{Old english teacher just saw me and came to talk to me ^^v}
Hmm i don’t know. The school blocked like every single free proxy site and shit. So im bored and my loser friend is beside me and lalala im really bored of blogging at school and I wish I can eat lasagna right now. OKIE bye.
{{ 2 MiLK`D }}`__ Lost till you’re found. ` posted April 4th, 2008
Ahem. Why do I have three April 3rd entries? Seems like time have stopped at April 3rd. Oh well. *coffs*
So, it’s Thursday already, and i’m just sitting here sulking about how lame my spring break was. Not to mention I kind of forgot about homework until what, yesterday? Aigo. Oh well.
Today was supposed to be an outing day for me. But I don’t know, I felt that it would be better if we canceled it so I did. I do admit it upsets me abit but what can I do? I don’t control people’s lives. Spending time alone again ne -3-” When I thought that this one day can make up for the whole week of being stupid and retarded, I guess not ><”
Enough of that though. I don’t know what I want to do now a days, and when people ask I usually just tell them “I don’t know” and hope they suggest something better. Although half the people say “I don’t know” back at me. Curse you curse you!
You know, I think boredom does get to your head. I’ve been screaming to people on MSN about how bored I am and they shut me up with a stupid “lol”. Why do people do this? Saying “lol” or nothing at all. The feeling of being ignored is not good. Thought we were friends.
Right now to be frank, I don’t feel too happy. Why? Because during the boring-est week of my already boring life, and no one is here at all. I wasted a week doing NOTHING and who said boyfriends are supposed to make things better. Stupid Edmon jerk face. Useless little boy -3-” Uh I mean..BIG boy. 2o yrs old boy o_o
I’m reading this entry and going “I think the child demon got out” because this entry sounds lame and childish and all I did was complain compared to my other entries where it’s all “life sucks. wanna trade?” LOL i’m kidding. Like I said, boredom scared my actual self away. SO MAMA. Bai :3
{{ 2 MiLK`D }}`__ Love till yu hate. ` posted April 3rd, 2008
Maybe he’s right. Maybe while i’m here trying to give a shit about everyone, when they actually don’t need me. Who knew that trying to care about someone would also make you upset. I never ever ever thought of that. So thank you to the person who made me realize, maybe the person they need, isn’t me.
{{ O MiLK`D }}`__ Ma. ` posted April 3rd, 2008
I think i’m falling. I want to blog, it’s pointless. But I guess I am now. I want to pour out my feelings but I can’t. I want to cry even though that’s what I do best, but I can’t. I want to talk to someone, but I can’t. It seems that the very few people that seemed like reality in my life is now gone, they now don’t care. Even my love life is in question. Maybe I was born to fail, born to fall, maybe someone is laughing at me because I can fall, but it takes great effort to get back up. Why is that? Why do I have to try so hard to get someone’s attention, but have to do nothing to lose it all. Why is it that when I think people would be here to catch me, they all run away and let me fall.
Does being emotional mean to be ignored? Am I to blame for being sensitive?If there was ever a life chart, mine would just fall down, with no improvements. I hate my life because I have no one. Yet I want to continue because I believe in myself. I break down so easily, I am so weak. But that’s not my fault. All the personalities I was born with all seem to be what everyone avoid.
Or has it always been…that i’ve been forcing myself into the little space on Earth, yet it’s not really there?
{{ 1 MiLK`D }}`__ I like quizzes? ` posted March 25th, 2008
I stole this off some chick on facebook because she made the note.
BTW. THe best thing about these is I can answer with non-sense. SO excuse me.
[1] Who was your last text from?
Ahm…Edmon
[2] Where was your default pic taken?
At home
[3] Whats your first name ?
Loser
[4] Your current relationship status?
Dating
[5] Does your crush like you back?
I highly doubt it xD
[6] What is your current mood?
Stupid.
[7]What are you doing this weekend?
Played pool and ate sushi with my losers.
[8] What color shirt are you wearing?
Black.
[9] What was the last thing you drank?
Root beer
[10] Do you have any pets? What kind?
I have Lee in my closet.
[11] Have a crazy side?
I don’t have room for just normal crazy.
[12] Ever had a near death experience?
Hahaha….no.
[13] Something you do a lot?
Dreaming about being rich
[14] Angry at anyone?
All my so called “friends” at my school.
[15] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
Edmon, Ducky, Willy. Because I can be someone else around them besides a 16 year old.
[17] When was the last time you cried?
Last night cuz I hurt maiself and wanted comforting so I cried on demand so Edmon would get me food.
[18] Who would you do anything for?
Uh..my losers.
[19] Who are your heroes/people you look up to?
The ceiling? I believe that my great grandfather is hidden in there. {Like I know who he was LOL}
[20] What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
Are you joking the FUCKING face!
[21] What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Well you see, I spend 5 minutes trying to figure out the menu, then I realized that McDonald’s was less confusing. So yeah..xD
[22] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Clifford needed Emily..so she chose him for her own..and the love mate clifford grew so big..OKAY! YOU GET THE POINT AYES? Clifford?
[23] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
I am eating air, and drinking dust.
[24] Do you speak any other languages?
You know i’m ashamed to speak English. So i’m going to pretend some crazy alien is filling this out for me but al lI really speak is cantonese and mandarin. Also a little bit of japanese.
[25] Whats your favorite smell?
New houses, new buses, new books. HAHA. NEW STUFF? Except shoes.
[26] Describe your life?
Boring. Super Boring. Extreme Boring. Also throw in a little pepper of sadness.
[27] Do you like the rain?
Actually no. I don’t like worms. I don’t like garbage water raining on me. So no I hate rain.
[28] What are you thinking about right now?
Why I am doing this instead of blow drying my hair to go out.
[29] What should you be doing right now?
English essay…actually no going out comes first.
[30] What are you listening to?
Angela Zhang.
[31]Whats Your Name Again?
Frankenstien.
[32] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Uhm I have learned to control my prefrences. YOUNGRASSHOPPER AINT SO YOUNG. WAZZA!
[33] What is your natural hair color?
Black.
[34] Who was the last person to make you smile?
My losers.